Back To School

Hey Guys,

I'm sitting here this Monday morning enjoying a cup of white tea out of my favorite Wendy Williams mug (wishing it was chai tea) and I began to get the butterflies. No it's not the tea giving me the shakes, its the thought of DUN-DUN-DUN "Back to School" AHHHHHHH. Where do I begin? I'm not so much as worried about material items as I am worried about all three of us being in school full time. My poor hubby, fall schedules always bring a bit of welcomed chaos into the household. Oh well, he'll adjust in time. Enough about him, what about us? The best thing I can do is just jump in and get er done right? Curses to my damn need for planning and near inability to go with the flow!

Everything is different this year, new neighborhood, longer commute, the teen shall socialize and attend clubs and sports after school, the boy-child will be in the 4th freaking grade and I start my semester off with speech classes. Did you hear me? SPEECH CLASSES! what in the Sam hell was I thinking? As much as I love to talk I really don't like to "speak" lol. I had a job once where I had to give a presentation to like 300 students twice a year and that was terrifying in itself. The fear subsided once I got the ball rolling BUT only because it was pretty much instructions to them in black and white. All pre written information from my employer to the students. This on the other hand is me!!!! all me, my words, my actions and my fear! Oh and the worst part, are you ready? It has to be on Youtube!

This will definitely be an interesting school year for us and all of you are going along for the ride! Amidst all of this I've been searching and searching for a part-time job. Hey Baltimore, where are the decent part-time jobs? Not only will this year be chaotic it's gonna be darn expensive too! I have a junior in high school. Urgh the thought of the expenses got me all clinched up lol. We have prom, dues, fees, trips, rings and the list continues. Either way it's gotta get done and it will!

To sum it up, my fear isn't really in the change its in the adjustment. I like everything redundant and boring, no spur of the moment here guys! I guess this year changes it all huh? One thing I can not give up is my trusty day planner, I would truly feel like I am entering this journey "naked and afraid." Welp, back to my tea, prepping my planner and my thoughts now, until next time!

-Sheli

Frazzled

Hey Guys,

A good friend and I were talking the other day and we got on the subject of losing yourself. It was odd because we have been friends for a long time and talk on a regular basis, however neither of us knew that the other was completely lost at one point. Hell, I am still a bit lost if you ask me. I am sure you have been there as well, kinda like going through the motions of the day to day not really having a sense of fulfillment. It could be short or long term, however, at some point I am sure you said to yourself "I have got to do better" I am interested in knowing exactly what did you do at that point in time?

What did I do? I did absolutely nothing. I actually fell into a fit of light depression and uncertainty. I was pretty much faced with the decision to continue to slave away with no advancement in sight or stand up for myself and at least have a bit of dignity in a dead end situation. Thankfully the lord saw fit to see me out of that horrible, horrible position. I have to admit, it was a bit rocky at first I wasn't really sure what to expect with this new found freedom! Thankfully I had certain responsibilities that took up the majority of my time.

Now here I am, here we are....... my thumbs are twiddling and my nerves are bad. I read somewhere that I should make a list of my goals and priorities and take it one day at a time. Well umm, how can I say in the nicest way possible that umm, that is pure bullshit to me! The idea of a list is in fact good but really, I mean really this is not Sheli in a perfect world just running around checking off accomplishments, reaching goals and doing the damn thing uninterrupted. I guess I will have to admit here that I am not exactly sure how to juggle things. Heck, I am not even sure how I made it this far without a complete breakdown.

So I shall leave you all with this picture, it absolutely personifies exactly how I am feeling right now. Help me gods of organization and self made deadlines!!!!!!

The Three R's

Working on All Three!!

Hey guys and dolls! I am sitting here tying up some loose ends and I realized just how healthy it is to keep myself busy! Notice I said myself, I'm not busy with children or husband stuff I am busy with something that is all about me! That is a HUGE deal for me because during my relaxation period I realized just how much I have put off, neglected and plain old forgotten about over time due to being engulfed in everything BUT what I desired for myself. 

Getting Started!! 

So I decided to do this, the writing thing again. One thing that has stuck with me was writing, be it a simple poem, a note to myself or a full page spread of venting it was all writing just the same. I have also dived into preparations to start my own business. I am going to take on the time honored tradition of my Aunties and pursue my desire to make hand made items such as jewelry, notecards and trinkets. I feel so good about this transition because I am not looking for a financial windfall, I am actually looking forward to producing something that I love and want to share with others. 

What To Do?? 

Gosh, to talk about my whole RRR (Relax Relate Release) is super hard. Its been going on for about 5 years now. 5 super long, tumultuous, heart aching, heart breaking, down and dirty YEARS. I wouldn't change it for the world, not one occurrence.  We will definitely get into the details of those "glory years" later. Right now I want to know what you guys do for self fulfillment. Hey, it may spark ideas in others or even inspire you even more towards your goals.  Let me know in the comments!!! 

-Sheli

A Fresh Start

Hey All, After much consideration and a tug of war with my ego I have decided to get back into my original passion. Writing, blogging and giving my hefty opinions. So where do I begin? Well first off, corporate america has smudged out the last bit of flame that I had for the 9-5 yes'm club. I have decided to go into business for me. Hey, I come from entrepreneurial stock so why not give this whole self-employment thing a try. Right now I am doing a teespring campaign called "Stand Firm in Your Truth" I plan to use this as an avenue into girls and women's empowerment and encouragement for them to tell their stories, vent a little and just plain old have a burden lifting experience while encouraging others. Until I began to voice my trials I had no idea how minuscule some were, how much I had in common with other women and just how life changing a simple story could be for me. I really want to share this experience with everyone that I can! I am so excited for you all to join me and I also welcome any comments or advice you have to help make this stronger. In the meantime check out my campaign at:

 teespring.com/standinyourtruth

I have until August 3rd to have 50 reserve orders before the shirts will go to print. They are quite cute I may add. -Sheli