Frazzled

Hey Guys,

A good friend and I were talking the other day and we got on the subject of losing yourself. It was odd because we have been friends for a long time and talk on a regular basis, however neither of us knew that the other was completely lost at one point. Hell, I am still a bit lost if you ask me. I am sure you have been there as well, kinda like going through the motions of the day to day not really having a sense of fulfillment. It could be short or long term, however, at some point I am sure you said to yourself "I have got to do better" I am interested in knowing exactly what did you do at that point in time?

What did I do? I did absolutely nothing. I actually fell into a fit of light depression and uncertainty. I was pretty much faced with the decision to continue to slave away with no advancement in sight or stand up for myself and at least have a bit of dignity in a dead end situation. Thankfully the lord saw fit to see me out of that horrible, horrible position. I have to admit, it was a bit rocky at first I wasn't really sure what to expect with this new found freedom! Thankfully I had certain responsibilities that took up the majority of my time.

Now here I am, here we are....... my thumbs are twiddling and my nerves are bad. I read somewhere that I should make a list of my goals and priorities and take it one day at a time. Well umm, how can I say in the nicest way possible that umm, that is pure bullshit to me! The idea of a list is in fact good but really, I mean really this is not Sheli in a perfect world just running around checking off accomplishments, reaching goals and doing the damn thing uninterrupted. I guess I will have to admit here that I am not exactly sure how to juggle things. Heck, I am not even sure how I made it this far without a complete breakdown.

So I shall leave you all with this picture, it absolutely personifies exactly how I am feeling right now. Help me gods of organization and self made deadlines!!!!!!